What happened to you during your transition?
I don't know, it was the strangest of occurances. I mentally kept sliding back into another time, a different dimension. I had no control over the sensation, it crept up on me out of the blue.
No matter where I was, in the shower, driving, drinking coffee on my terrace - I felt as if I was experiencing some kind of flashback, running it through in slow motion like a video recording. The feeling affected me physically too. Horror, panic, rapid heartbeat - and then I would feel a burning sensation surging through my veins, burst into tears and the finale was to actually throw up!
I fell asleep after one of these episodes and woke up to a bright light in my darkened room, the blindingly white flashes of lightening, accompanied by horrendous thunder. I sat on the side of the bed, the power cut out but the room was lit well enough by the lightening bolts. I didn't feel any fear which is unusual for me. I eventually fell into a deep sleep. In the morning the sun shone brightly through the uncovered windows. I was laying upside down on my bed, head towards the footboard. I sat up and a feeling of happiness surged through me. The transition was complete. I just knew.
I ran down your stairs, I was convinced you had done something. But there you were, the sunlight on your face, in your hair, smiling, laughing almost. I knew then we had to be in this thing together, I never wanted to leave your side ever again. And that you had all the answers.
Oh Frenchy, I wish I did. but I don't.
But you do my Tiny Fair. You do.
So now what?
Well I have gotten you into a fine mess haven't I?
You sure have.
Think back to St James's Place.
What about it?
The art gallery.
What was in there?
Not what, but who?
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