The Golden Pen

Long before Libertine learned that the world could be cruel, she believed it would reward honesty, imagination, and hard work.

She was seven when her school announced a writing competition. The prize was a golden pen.

Stories had always lived inside her. They arrived fully formed, as though they had simply been waiting for her to write them down. While other children searched for ideas, hers came effortlessly. She knew, with the quiet certainty only a child can possess, that her story was the best she had ever written.

When the winner was announced, her name echoed around the classroom.

Her heart soared.

"The headmaster wants to see you."

She walked to his office imagining the golden pen waiting on his desk. She imagined its weight in her hand and the pride she would feel carrying it home.

Instead, she stepped into a storm.

The headmaster's face burned with anger.

"You dirty, lying little cheat," he barked.

Libertine froze.

"You copied this story from a book."

"I didn't, sir."

"Don't lie to me."

"I wrote it."

"No seven-year-old could write this."

He threatened her with the cane.

There was no prize. No congratulations. No chance to explain. The golden pen disappeared before she had even seen it.

She left the office empty-handed, carrying something far heavier than disappointment.

She carried doubt.

Perhaps the world did not believe children could possess imagination. Perhaps if she wrote too well, she would always be accused of stealing someone else's words.

For a long time, she wrote more quietly.

Two years later, at a different school, her English teacher gave the class a homework assignment.

"Write an essay."

Libertine did what she had always done.

She wrote.

The next day, the teacher sat at her desk reading each essay. When she reached Libertine's, she became completely still.

She read it once.

Then again.

When she finally looked up, there was an expression on her face Libertine recognised all too well.

Disbelief.

Her stomach tightened.

*Not again.*

The teacher spoke gently.

"Did you write this yourself, Libertine?"

"Yes, Miss."

"Every word?"

"Yes."

The teacher nodded slowly.

Then she stood.

"I've decided we're changing today's lesson."

The room fell silent.

"I'm going to read Libertine's essay."

Libertine wished she could disappear.

The teacher read every word aloud.

When she finished, she didn't put the paper down.

Instead, she began asking questions.

"What do you think she means here?"

"What feeling does this sentence create?"

"Why do you think she chose these words instead of different ones?"

One by one, the class tried to unravel the meaning hidden inside her writing.

For the rest of the lesson, they analysed the work of a nine-year-old girl.

Every so often the teacher looked back at Libertine, not with suspicion but with admiration.

It was the first time an adult had looked at her words and believed they belonged to her.

She didn't feel clever.

She didn't even feel proud.

She felt confused.

Then, quietly, she felt something else.

Special.

Two teachers had looked at the same gift and reached entirely different conclusions.

One believed it must have been stolen.

The other believed it was worthy of study.

Children often remember the adults who wound them.

But they also remember the ones who see them.

The golden pen was never placed in Libertine's hand.

Instead, life gave her something far more valuable.

The knowledge that although some people would never believe her words were her own, somewhere there would always be someone who recognised them the moment they read them.

And somewhere out there was the monster head teacher reading every one.

Libertine: The Child of Neptune

There are children born beneath ordinary skies, tethered to the rhythms of the Earth.

Then there are the rare few who arrive carrying the silence of distant planets.

Libertine was one of them.

She belonged to Neptune.

Not the god who ruled the seas, but the great sapphire planet itself, turning endlessly in the black cathedral of space. A child of impossible blue storms and frozen winds that circled a world no human hand could ever touch. Somewhere within its eternal tempests, something ancient had recognised her before she was born.

Mercury, swift and elusive, became her faithful companion. It whispered messages before words were spoken, carried thoughts ahead of time, and folded moments together until yesterday and tomorrow became indistinguishable.

That was why she always knew.

Before the telephone rang a second time, she already knew whose voice would greet her.

Before a stranger opened their mouth, she knew whether kindness or danger travelled beside them.

Before the first light of dawn touched her room, she would awaken with the curious feeling that starlight had settled upon her face. Looking into the mirror, she could almost see a veil of golden dust across her skin. It vanished the instant she reached for it, leaving only the memory of celestial hands having visited in the night.

Others dismissed such things.

Libertine simply accepted them.

The universe had never spoken the language of coincidence.

The remarkable sought her without invitation.

Musicians who dreamed melodies they had never written.

Scientists who spoke of impossible discoveries with the certainty of prophets.

Painters whose canvases looked like forgotten galaxies.

Old souls hidden inside young faces.

Each recognised something in Libertine that reminded them of home, although none could explain where that home truly was.

She walked without maps.

Instinct was her compass.

Invisible guardians travelled with her, not as winged figures from paintings, but as quiet alterations in reality itself. A missed train. A delayed meeting. A sudden decision to take another road. Tiny adjustments that gently redirected catastrophe until it became nothing more than a story that never happened.

There were times when the veil between worlds became almost transparent.

The air around her shimmered.

The wind changed direction without warning.

Then, from the emptiness, ghost windmills appeared.

Not built from timber or stone, but from translucent currents of air turning silently in the invisible atmosphere. Their vast spectral sails revolved without sound, harvesting memories instead of wind. They existed for only moments before dissolving into nothing, leaving behind the scent of rain and distant oceans.

She never questioned them.

They belonged where she belonged.

Sometimes the sky answered her presence.

Small spheres of lightning gathered around her hands and shoulders, luminous blue orbs that floated lazily through the air like curious living creatures. They hissed and crackled with quiet intelligence, weaving graceful circles around her as though protecting their companion.

People who witnessed them spoke of static electricity.

Libertine smiled.

She knew better.

The lightning balls danced until their energy slowly surrendered itself. One by one they faded, dissolving into brilliant blue light that hung in the air for a heartbeat before disappearing into the fabric of the universe from which they had come.

Even after they vanished, the silence they left behind seemed brighter.

The dead found her easily.

Friends long departed stepped gently across the astral plane as though crossing an old garden path. They shared stories, warnings, laughter, and unfinished dreams. Death had never seemed like an ending to Libertine.

Only another orbit.

She borrowed inspiration from artists centuries gone, hearing forgotten symphonies, unfinished poems, and paintings that had never reached a canvas. Their gifts flowed through her hands, not as possession, but as quiet collaboration across time.

To the world she appeared unusual.

To the planets she was simply one of their own.

She had slipped beyond the narrow river of the present, living where time folded like silk, where stars remembered names, where Mercury carried whispers between worlds, and Neptune wrapped her in its endless blue storms.

And on certain evenings, when twilight held its breath and the first stars awakened, the ghost windmills turned once more above the horizon, while blue spheres of living lightning circled her in silent devotion, crackling softly before surrendering their last spark to the night.

Those who saw only the Earth called it impossible.

Libertine knew it was simply home.

Wounds Beneath the Surface

"You know what the problem is?" Tiny Fair asked, watching the gulls circle over the grey sea.

Frenchy shrugged. "There are so many, you'll have to narrow it down."

Tiny smiled faintly. "People think trauma is the event."

"It isn't?"

"No. The event ends. Trauma stays behind and rearranges the furniture."

Frenchy looked towards the horizon where the tide was pulling quietly away from the shore.

"So what is it?"

"It's the silence afterwards."

The wind carried the smell of salt and rain.

Frenchy picked up a smooth stone and turned it over in his hands.

"I always imagined trauma was loud. Screaming. Shouting. Broken glass."

Tiny shook her head.

"That's memory. Trauma is quieter than that. Trauma is sitting peacefully in a beautiful room and still searching for the nearest exit."

Frenchy laughed softly.

"That's strangely accurate."

"I know."

They walked a little further.

"I used to think people healed by forgetting," Frenchy admitted.

"And now?"

"I think they heal when they stop apologising for remembering."

Tiny stopped beside the old sea wall stained green by years of tidewater.

"The hardest part isn't surviving terrible people."

"No?"

"It's surviving becoming someone who expects terrible people everywhere."

Frenchy nodded.

"So every kindness feels suspicious."

"Exactly."

"And every compliment sounds like bait."

Tiny looked down at the shells scattered across the wet sand.

"Children build themselves from what they're given."

Frenchy was silent.

"If they're given love..."

"They become fearless."

"And if they're given fear?"

"They become architects."

Frenchy frowned.

"Architects?"

"They build invisible rooms inside themselves. Rooms with no windows. No doors. Places where nobody can reach them again."

The waves folded onto the beach in slow rhythm.

"I lived in one of those rooms," Frenchy said quietly.

Tiny didn't answer immediately.

"So did I."

They continued walking.

Neither tried to fix the other.

Neither searched for clever words.

Some conversations are not about answers.

They are simply two people recognising the shape of the same scar.

After a while Frenchy smiled.

"Do you think scars ever disappear?"

Tiny looked out across the water where the evening light had begun to turn silver.

"No."

Frenchy sighed.

"That's disappointing."

Tiny shook her head.

"No. Because scars aren't proof that we were broken."

"What are they then?"

"They're proof the wound closed."

The sea continued its endless conversation with the shore.

For the first time in years, neither of them felt the need to drown out the silence.

Sometimes healing does not arrive like sunrise.

Sometimes it arrives as another human being quietly saying,

"I know."

And somehow, that is enough for you to keep walking.

The Night They Disappeared

 

There are moments in childhood when reality splinters.

Not with a loud crack, nor with thunder or lightning, but quietly, in the darkness between two rooms, while adults believe children are asleep.

Libertine crept onto the landing and crouched between the stair balustrades. The polished wood felt cold beneath her bare legs. Raised voices drifted from the room at the front of the house, the room she called the Sunday Room.

It was a place that seemed frozen in time.

A small fireplace that beneath sat an electric Sunray heater whose orange bars flickered like captive flames. A dark green three-piece suite occupied most of the room, its polished wooden arms gleaming even in poor light. A coffee table stood neatly in the centre and against the wall rested a sideboard topped by a Swiss weather clock.

The little wooden doors fascinated Libertine.

Each morning either a tiny man or woman would emerge from inside. One meant sunshine. The other meant rain. She could never remember which was which.

Tonight neither seemed important.

The voices were growing louder.

A man.

A woman.

Angry words colliding like crashing cars.

Then suddenly she heard it.

Her name.

"LIBERTINE!"

The woman's voice cut through the house like a blade.

Libertine shrank instinctively.

She hated her name in moments like these.

The way the woman said it.

As if it were dirt.

As if it tasted foul.

The fat woman never wanted somebody else's children. That much Libertine understood. Children heard more than adults imagined.

She listened harder.

The man's voice erupted.

"Of course I didn't expect you to love another woman's children! What did you expect me to do with them?"

The woman shouted back.

The argument spiralled.

The school was asking questions.

Child services were becoming suspicious.

The girls rarely attended lessons.

Coraline barely spoke.

Libertine spoke too much.

She told everybody everything.

The adults hated that.

Truth was dangerous in a house built upon lies.

Then came the sentence that split reality in two.

"I have a plan," Jimmy Snr said.

The room fell quieter. Libertine leaned over the bannister. 

"I'll take a carving knife from the kitchen and kill them."

Silence.

Libertine stopped breathing.

"They won't be missed. "

"Child services will ask questions. "

"We will say they have gone back to their mother, that will be the end of that."

The words landed heavily in the darkness.

The sisters had outlived their usefulness.

No longer assets.

No longer burdens worth carrying.

Simply problems to be removed.

Jimmy Snr spoke of dispatching them as one might speak of unwanted animals.

Bury them somewhere.

Out of sight.

Out of mind.

The shouting ended.

Libertine pressed a hand over her mouth to stop herself making a sound.

Her heart hammered wildly.

For a moment she remained frozen between childhood and terror.

Then instinct took over.

She ran.

Back to the tiny room she shared with Coraline.

The room where two forgotten girls slept beneath thin blankets.

She shook her sister urgently.

"Coraline."

No response.

"Coraline, wake up."

The younger girl stirred.

Confused.

Half asleep.

"We have to leave."

Coraline blinked.

"What?"

"Now."

The seven-year-old didn't understand.

She only knew her sister looked frightened.

That was enough.

They dressed in silence.

No shoes.

No coats.

Throw them from the window incase they got caught leaving.

No questions.

On the way through the garden Libertine stopped beside the apple tree.

She filled a small cotton bag with fruit.

It seemed sensible. Coraline cried when she was hungry.

Children always think of hunger before danger.

Then they slipped through the gate and disappeared into the night.

No one saw them leave.

No one tried to stop them.

The woods waited beyond the fields.

Ancient.

Dark.

Silent.

Coraline trembled as they walked.

She hated the darkness.

Every snapped twig sounded like pursuit.

Every rustling leaf became a threat.

But Libertine squeezed her hand.

They eventually reached the old oak tree.

The largest tree in the forest.

A giant older than memory.

They curled beneath its branches.

"I'll look after you," Libertine whispered.

Coraline buried her face against her sister's shoulder and cried.

Libertine held her tightly.

Neither child understood the absurdity of the promise.

One was seven.

The other only nine.

Neither could truly protect themselves.

Yet love creates courage where none should exist.

The woods were peaceful.

There was no shouting.

No slammed doors.

No insults.

No hunger.

No footsteps approaching bedrooms after midnight.

For the first time in a long while, the girls felt something close to safety. In the moonlit forest.

Eventually even Libertine's determination surrendered to exhaustion.

Her eyes closed.

The forest breathed around them.

And sleep came.

When dawn finally arrived, nobody had been stabbed with a carving knife.

No father stood over them.

No false mother spat obscenities.

The sisters woke beneath shafts of golden light filtering through the trees.

Birdsong replaced arguments.

The river glistened nearby.

They walked beside it hand in hand.

Two tiny figures moving through a world that had suddenly become enormous.

Behind them lay the house.

The lies.

The fear.

The people who never wanted them.

Ahead lay uncertainty.

Yet uncertainty felt kinder than certainty had ever been.

So they followed the river.

Holding hands.

Watching the morning unfold.

And wishing with all their hearts that nobody would ever find them again.

The Beast Who Walks The Nights

Who are the creatures that roam the night?

Not the foxes slipping through hedgerows. Not the owls drifting silently between the trees. Not the restless cats balancing along garden walls.

Something else.

Something wearing a human face.

While the town sleeps beneath warm blankets safely behind locked doors, there is one pair of eyes that never truly closes. 

Wide. Watching. Calculating.

The streets belong to him.

He moves through the darkness searching for weakness, for vulnerability, for the smallest crack in another person's life. Not because he needs money. Not because he needs food. Not because he needs survival.

He needs power.

The power he never possessed in daylight.

Young, strong men rarely interest him. They are difficult prey. They might fight back. They might expose the illusion.

No.

He seeks the solitary woman walking home beneath the amber streetlights. The elderly man whose hands tremble with age. The lonely soul already carrying invisible wounds.

Those are easier.

Those are safer.

And safety is the closest thing this beast understands as courage.

He tells himself they wronged him. That they caused his failures. That they laughed when he stumbled. That somehow they are responsible for the hollow ache living inside his chest.

So he kills them.

Not always with a knife.

Not always with his hands.

Sometimes he kills them through fear.

Sometimes through lies.

Sometimes through relentless cruelty repeated over years until the victim no longer recognises themselves in the mirror.

The same murder committed again and again.

A thousand tiny deaths.

The victim may continue breathing, but pieces of them vanish. Confidence. Hope. Trust. Joy.

Gone.

Reduced to ash.

Yet the true horror is not the destruction of one person.

It is the destruction of an entire family.

One ordinary family photograph hanging on a wall. Smiling faces. Birthday cakes. Summer holidays. Christmas mornings.

Then the beast arrives.

Years later the photograph remains, but everything inside it has changed.

The smiles become evidence.

The memories become crime scenes.

The family history fractures into Before and After.

Children inherit nightmares that were never theirs.

Parents grow old carrying grief they cannot name.

Brothers and sisters become strangers.

A whole generation poisoned by the touch of one predator.

And still he sleeps soundly.

Still he wakes each morning and puts on his ordinary dreary clothes. To mark himself out as just another Joe Soap.

Still he goes to work.

The neighbours wave.

The shopkeeper smiles.

The world sees a man carrying a briefcase.

Nobody sees the cemetery he carries inside him.

While others cry, he barely breaks a sweat.

While others bury the dead versions of themselves, he drinks coffee and discusses the weather.

There is something deeply unsettling about mediocrity wearing the mask of evil.

Because he is a nobody in life.

A forgettable figure.

An extra character wandering through the background of existence.

Yet in death..

In destruction..

In the suffering of others..

He becomes somebody.

For a moment he feels enormous.

For a moment he feels important.

For a moment he mistakes terror for respect.

But the night keeps its own records.

The darkness remembers every footprint.

Every whisper.

Every act committed beneath its cover.

And somewhere beyond the town, beyond the sleeping houses and silent roads, dawn waits patiently.

Because every beast believes the night belongs to him forever.

Until the morning arrives.

She Was Never Afraid

 

There is a particular hour that belongs to no one.

Not night. Not morning.

A suspended place between the two where the darkness seems endless, yet somewhere beyond the horizon the light is already preparing its entrance.

I've been there.

I know that hour.

The hour when exhaustion becomes a companion and sleep refuses to arrive. When memories drift through open doorways and old houses call your name from places you thought had long since disappeared.

So I walked through the house again.

Every room.

Every hallway.

Every worn armchair, every chipped table, every curtain shifting in a breeze.

I remembered everything.

The conversations.

The silences.

The moments that changed lives without anyone noticing.

I looked for you.

Perhaps you were there once.

Perhaps you stood in one of those rooms while history quietly rearranged itself around us.

But if you were there, I could not see you.

Only shadows remained.

I was wearing the black dress.

The red shoes.

The ones that make people stare.

My hair danced wildly in the ocean wind as it swept across the terraces overlooking the sea. The waves below crashed against the rocks with ancient certainty, unconcerned by human dramas.

The ocean has always known things we do not.

Then (...) The theatre.

A singer stood alone beneath a single spotlight.

Her voice filled the darkness.

Beautiful.

Haunting.

The sort of song that feels less like music and more like a memory trying to return home.

When she finished, I stood and applauded.

A standing ovation.

The lights rose slowly.

That was when I realised there was nobody else there.

Not a single person.

Only me.

Rows upon rows of empty seats stretching into darkness.

The singer smiled.

Then she disappeared stage left.

The lights faded.

And once again, I was alone.

Outside, the city was unfamiliar.

The streets wore different faces.

My favourite shop had vanished, replaced by baskets of strange vegetables I could not name. Women searched through them quietly, wrapped in dark fabrics, their eyes following me as I passed.

Perhaps they recognised me.

Perhaps they didn't.

Either way, I kept walking.

Some journeys are not meant for conversation.

Then I found him.

A tiny puppy sitting beside a broken wall.

No owner.

No collar.

No fear.

Just enormous hopeful eyes staring into the world.

So I picked him up.

He weighed almost nothing.

A small heartbeat against my chest.

And together we continued.

The streets became stranger.

Buildings collapsed into piles of stone and dust.

Windows stared out like empty eye sockets.

Walls leaned against one another, exhausted from holding themselves upright for too many years.

It looked as though the city had survived a war.

Or perhaps a memory of one.

Yet I was never afraid.

Not once.

Because somewhere along the way I had learned a secret.

Ruins are not always signs of endings.

Sometimes they are evidence that something survived.

The walls may fall.

The streets may change.

The audience may disappear.

The people you search for may never appear in the rooms where you expect to find them.

Still, you keep walking.

You carry the small wounded things you find.

You virtually crawl through the wreckage.

You follow the faintest suggestion of dawn.

And eventually, after the longest night imaginable, the sky begins to surrender.

A thin silver line appears at the edge of the world.

Then another.

And another.

The darkness does not leave all at once.

But it leaves.

It always leaves.

And standing among the ruins, with a puppy in my arms and the sea somewhere behind me, I knew exactly what I had always known.

I would be okay.

I always was.